Growing older is an adventure and not always a great one! Sometimes I think I'm wiser and other times I'm not so sure. But I think about lots of stuff and if you read this blog, you'll get to know what's going on in this mind of mine. Thanks for going on this journey with me!
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Day 28...countdown!
Monday, October 24, 2011
our last week
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
catching up
Monday, October 10, 2011
a regular day
Breakfast at 7 am: Scrambled eggs, toast, buttered oatmeal, fruit juice and pork sausage seasoned by moi! Then it’s clean up and a little writing time. I did a little laundry and straightened up our room. We are comfortable in our place. It’s an upstairs apartment that occasionally houses missionary families but it’s not occupied now except by Byron and me. It’s cool and comfy and we are sleeping well there.
Gayle fixed lunch while I started supper. Homemade spaghetti sauce with pasta, fresh garden salad with olive oil vinaigrette, buttery toasted French bread, with homemade apple walnut cake and real whipped cream for dessert. All in all, I’d say it was a yummy meal. I found the cake recipe in an old church cookbook of Gayle’s and even though it is easy, it is a tasty recipe. Here it is:
Apple Walnut Cake
4 C coarsely chopped apples 2 C all purpose flour
2 C sugar 2 tsp baking soda
2 eggs 2 tsp cinnamon
½ C vegetable oil ½ tsp salt
2 tsp vanilla 1 C chopped walnuts
Combine apples and sugar; let stand. Beat eggs slightly. Beat in oil and vanilla. Mix flour with baking soda, cinnamon and salt. Pour egg mixture and flour mixture into bowl with apples. Mix very well. Bake at 350 about 1 hour in a 9 X 13 pan. Serve with homemade whipped cream or a scoop of vanilla ice cream.
The guys came in about 5:30 cleaned up and came to the house to wait for supper. A few of them checked emails and tried to call home and another couple of them dozed off on the couch for a little cat nap before our meal.
I set the food out, Byron asked the Lord’s blessing on it and we ate. During the meal and afterward there was great conversation and lots of laughter and later more attempts at communicating with home. Someone put in a comedy video and we enjoyed Tim Conway and his humor.
Bedtime came soon for us as we went to bed a little early. Early for me, anyway. Even I can’t believe it. But I’ve worked hard thus far and by that time of night, I’m ready to call it a day.
I hope most days will be pretty uneventful but good, and that the work progresses smoothly. It seems that will be the way most progress will be made and our time here will be most productive.
But the people who trust the Lord will become strong again. They will rise up as an eagle in the sky; they will run and not need rest; they will walk and not become tired. Isaiah 40:31
We just keep walking…
Suz
Saturday, October 8, 2011
conditioning and cleanliness
Keeping a journal and putting some of it in the blog isn’t as easy as it might seem. There are many things I’d like to capture but busy-ness creeps in the way. I want to write down how I feel about this place and the new things I’m observing but I often have a difficult time with putting my feelings in type. The city is cleaner than it ever has been according to Pastor Carrol but by U.S. standards it’s still pretty dirty and it often smells bad. When we stepped off the plane into the terminal at Malabo, I noticed the odor and I remembered it from our last time here two years ago. I do try to remember that I am also conditioned to U.S. standards and it’s just not the way it is in the rest of the world. I’m not sure we always do ourselves a favor by becoming such germophobes. I’m trying to lighten up and adjust.
I started dinner fairly early today. We had BBQ pork chops with homemade bbq sauce, white bean soup with tomatoes and seasoned with a few carrots and onions, buttered carrots, steamed potatoes, leftover green beans, leaf lettuce and tomato salad with olive oil vinaigrette, and buttermilk cornbread, iced tea and soft drinks.
This was a day of firsts for me, I suppose. I made French toast AND BBQ sauce for the first time ever and both turned out pretty well. I took Gayle’s advice and added a bit of milk, a few drops of vanilla and a sprinkle of cinnamon to the egg mixture. It was tasty and I’m not a big French toast fan. The BBQ sauce recipe I got online and it was simple and pungent but went well with the other more low key flavors in our meal. I’d make it again, and I probably will!
When we'd finished dinner Benny called us all together for a time of reflection about our stay here so far. There were some great feelings expressed and some told how the Lord is speaking to them in this place. I recounted my green bean revelation and asked for prayer for a friend from home. Others shared testimonies of the Lord’s goodness and lessons learned and it was a good time of encouragement and support in this place so far from home. Times like these on a mission trip are necessary. We know why we're working so far away from home, but sharing our thoughts and needs with one another and praying for one another helps us keep our focus on the truly important things on this trip and in life.
It was then time to turn in and rest up for the next day. I’m not used to so much activity. My life is pretty sedentary at home, so this is a challenge for me. My bed time now reflects the difference and is much earlier here--but I welcome it. I know how necessary rest is when the body is at its limit.
The days are long.
My work is steady.
My body gets tired.
My heart is content.
God is good.
All the time.
Father, thank you for this expansion experience. I’m stretching and I think it’s good. We are not all alike over the world and not everyone has to think like I think or to do things as I do them. You are who is important and the condition of our soul is more important than the cleanliness of our cities, our homes or our hands. I love you and thank you for opening my eyes and for helping me keep them on You
Suz
Friday, October 7, 2011
Day 3 stringing and popping
Up, bright and early at 5:45 am. Gotta have food ready by 7 for the guys. A similar breakfast for most days: scrambled eggs, buttered oatmeal, toast, bacon, fruit juice, tea and coffee. Then, it’s off to work! For the guys, and for me!
First, it’s kitchen clean up, then shower time and a little bit of writing before fixing sandwiches to take to the guys for lunch. We make ham and cheese sandwiches along with peanut butter and jelly sandwiches on bread fresh from the bakery, with Pringles, cookies and drinks for their midday meal.
We take them their lunch at noon and I see that the Bible school is coming right along! The library is nearing completion with finish work. The windows are in, painting is finished, and the light fixtures are up. It‘s going to be a beautiful building that serves the campus well.
Gayle and I visit with them for a few minutes and then it’s back to the house to begin prep for supper. We have lots of fresh green beans to string and break up, potatoes to wash and cut up, whole chickens to clean, soak, cut up, and season to grill, cabbage to chop for slaw and brownies to bake for dessert. It is going to be a busy afternoon of work!
Fresh produce is one of my very favorite things. I love all types of veggies and if they are fresh from the garden, all the better. We had the bounty of fresh produce that Gayle brought back from Moka on Sunday afternoon, some were gifts to her, some she purchased. One of the things she purchased was a big bag of green beans, a lot of them—a whole lot. I don’t mind prep work but what I really like to do is cook, so as I’m sitting at the table taking the ends off, stringing each one and then popping it into a couple of pieces, I start getting bored. “These are going to be good. They’re nice and fresh. I wish I could get beans like this at home.” I prep a bunch more and I think, “Man, there sure are a lot of beans. Four steps to each bean. I’ll never get done. What a bunch of beans!”
It escalated from there. Then, as I kept stringing and popping, I thought about working for the Lord. Some jobs are in the limelight. Some are not. I was working for the Lord, and I was prepping veggies. I realized that doing something for the Lord isn’t always the big job, isn’t always up front, isn’t always fun or always interesting. Working for the Lord at the task He’s set before you is about walking and not fainting. It’s the daily task that’s rarely even noticed. It’s being faithful in well doing, regardless.
So, as I was stringing and popping the Lord spoke to my heart gently. He said, “If I was sitting beside you in the flesh and I asked you to string beans, would you do it?” No answer was necessary on my part. Of course I would, and I’d be honored to do it! It was so simple. My task, for that very moment, was to string and pop beans.
Dinner turned out well, but I thought it probably would. With all those great ingredients, it had to be good. Grilled chicken was juicy, beans and buttered potatoes, tasty, brownies…yummolicious! I’ve cooked for my family for 41 years and as a kid since I was 12 yrs old and I still get nervous when preparing meals for others. I want everything to be perfect and, let’s face it, it won’t always be so! The Lord has helped me on this trip and I need Him to keep helping me. I’m always my harshest critic when it comes to cooking or baking but so far, even I think the food has turned out pretty well. Thank you, Lord!
Cleanup doesn’t take too long as everyone helps out some, even after laying block all day. I try to stay up and write then but I am exhausted so Byron and I go to bed at 8:30! Me? Before 2? Yep. And I slept all night, too! It was a busy, very busy day, but a good day. A very good day!
Father, thank you for lessons about the small things. It's not just the one in front who has a heart for the things of God. You use even the most minute tasks to show us what is important to You. Help me to walk and not faint. To do the job set before me with a content heart. I love you and thank you for the task at hand.
Suz
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Day 2
Saturday night as we prepared to turn in, we heard African drums and chanting. It was loud and ominous and captured my attention immediately. First came the drums, then we heard chanting, then cheering. For a split second I wondered if it were some sort of sporting event because of the cheering but then I’d hear the drums and chanting and the whole feeling changed. It wasn’t a good sound. It sounded dark. I asked Gayle about it the next day and she asked me if it could have been a bar or night spot noise. I didn’t think so. It didn’t sound celebratory or drunken at all to me, so she said it may have been a witchcraft ceremony.
The menu for this morning included oatmeal, scrambled eggs, toast, fresh apples and watermelon, orange juice and mixed fruit juice and coffee. I got done in record time and everyone said it was good. We had to leave for church at 9:30. Thomas, a friend of Pastor Carrol’s, drove us to the church in his van because Gayle had gone to Moka where she pastors a small church, and she takes the car. Thomas is from Ghana and is a tradesman. He makes rattan furniture, etc. He has a wife and some of his children here in Malabo and he very kindly drove us to church just in time for Sunday School.
There were three classes being taught at the same time in the unfinished sanctuary. Two classes were taught in English and one in Spanish. We broke up into two groups for the English classes so neither teacher would feel slighted. Our teacher, Paul, was well versed in the lesson and with the exception of the acoustics (it was very loud and echoey), I enjoyed the class. I thought he did a good job especially when someone asked a question and no one volunteered to answer. A man asked a question was about how the Lord’s mercies are new every morning. He wanted to know what it meant. No one wanted to commit himself to answering it so our teacher said, “Our brother asked a question to learn more about the things of God. Will no one help him understand what he needs to know? “ It took twice asking this same question but finally a woman gave him an answer.
She was Christy, a diplomat from Nigeria living in Malabo. She explained how the Lord meets our changing needs every day and the Lord is merciful to each of us by meeting these needs when we call to Him. She answered his question in a way that the man understood and he left knowing a little more about the Lord and His goodness.
The worship service was great! Lots of music, prayer, offerings and dancing. We also had communion at the end of the service. I love how the church in Malabo receives the offerings, tithes and missions giving. There are labeled boxes on pedestals for each type offering: tithes, missions and general offerings. They are lined up across the front of the church. First, tithes payers come up bringing their tithes with them. They stand in front of the box and the whole congregation and pastor prays for them and over their giving. It’s a solemn moment and, yet, happy. They are doing what the Lord requires and it is good.
The other offering boxes are lined up and the music begins again, loudly and lively! People come from both sides dancing as they bring in their offerings at the same time, meeting in the middle and then leaving up the center aisle. They sing, they clap, they dance. It’s beautiful! I love the joyfulness of their giving. It makes me want to dance, too!
Communion requires one be a born again and a water baptized believer for participation. If you qualify and want to partake, you must walk forward with everyone else to receive the bread and wine. One man prayed over the bread, another over the wine. We prayed, partook and praised. It was beautiful.
If I had to describe the main difference I see in US church services and Malabo services, I think it’s that everything is not so private. You come up front to pay your tithes. You come up front to bring offerings. You come up front for communion. It creates accountability and allows others to see Christians following the Lord, obeying His teachings. Another difference is that anytime during the service, music, preaching, or even after prayer if someone likes something she heard or if something sung blesses her, that person brings up an offering right then. It doesn’t disturb the service and it blesses the heart of those in the congregation. It allows one a quick view into the heart of another.
We ate lunch at a nice Chinese restaurant. I had chicken and pineapple which sounds really good, but the sauce was a clear cornstarch sauce that made the dish unappetizing. I mostly ate the rice, spring roll, bok choy and my hot jasmine tea, so I still left satisfied.
Dinner was grilled burgers, pinto beans with tomatoes, garlic, and onion, jasmine rice, fresh lettuce and carrots from the garden. Gayle received the lettuce and carrots from someone’s garden as a practical offering and they were delicious! She also brought home a big sack of fresh green beans and cabbages. I think I see beans and coleslaw on our dinner plates soon.
It was a good day and after our late dinner I went to bed early because I was tired. I find it hard to write down all I’m seeing and experiencing. I can’t overcome my feelings of desperation for the people of Africa—and it is spiritual need that I write of as with witchcraft ceremonies, but also of physical need. There is no place to look where poverty does not invade. Like the ubiquitous trash everywhere one looks, there is poverty and lack. The weight of dust, dirt, filth is overwhelming. It breaks my heart to see people living this way but, I also wonder how much of it is my American culture that pushes me to think how hard it is here. Not every culture has the same standards of cleanliness so is it them…or me?
I will write a lot about food on this trip but it’s my focus because I’m the cook. It’s on my mind all the time; what’s for breakfast, lunch, dinner. What’s the plan for tonight? How can I make this taste like home? Should we have a dessert EVERY night?
Food is our fuel for the job at hand. The guys need good food and lots of it. I want to make it tasty. When our need for nourishment is met generously, when we have familiar foods prepared in familiar ways, I think it makes being the distance a little shorter, the longing for home a little less painful, being away from home a little easier.
Father, thank you for providing for us in safety, in strength and in sustenance for this trip, for every day. Jesus prayed, "Give us this day our daily bread." We are grateful for needs met, however great, however small. I love you.
Suz
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Day 1
Our flight to JFK went fairly smoothly. We had to pay a $300.00 oversized baggage charge for the two weed eaters we purchased for Pastor Carrol in Orlando and at JFK we sat on the runway for an hour and a half waiting for our turn in line to take off. The delay made us hurry to our gate in Paris so we had no time to look around or try any foreign treats. We went straight to boarding for our flight to Malabo. Byron and I had seats on opposite sides of the plane so I asked the young woman sitting beside me if she’d switch seats with Byron so he could sit with me and she agreed. So my hubby and I got to sit together for most of the 8hr flight. It was a nice thing for her to do.
I talked her for a little while at the end of the flight and she said her name is Dilara and she is a 20 yr old Turkish college student. In Texas, the others pronounced her name just as it's spelled and they ran the "Di" and "lara" together. It should be pronounced "De-lata" with a little roll on the "r." It's much prettier said this way and she wishes the others had pronounced it the way her mother intended. She had just completed a 3 month work/travel program in Corpus Christi, TX, where she worked as a hotel housekeeper. The bonus was a five day stay in New York City where she did some shopping, sightseeing and saw a Broadway show: The Addams Family She was heading home to start her new semester two weeks late but was confident she would catch up with her missed class work. She is studying to become an ecological engineer like her father and sister and is beginning her second year at Istanbul University.
I asked her about ecological engineering and she told me she was only studying it because her father and sister did, and her father was the one who had suggested the work/travel program. I was impressed with her courage, this girl who’s never left Turkey, never been to the USA, who's never even had a job, and who doesn't really want to be an ecological engineer. Her heart is in the arts. She wants to become an actress and be on stage. Ecological engineering is what she studies because she doesn’t know what else to study and because it was a family choice. Quite a conundrum. Why does someone with her whole life ahead of her spend 4 yrs and much of her father’s money pursuing someone else's dream?
I enjoyed talking to this young woman who may one day become a talented actress or even a great ecological voice. She has potential for anything she wants to do, but I wonder if it will be her dream, her father’s dream or will she make choices in her young life that will take her down a completely different path. She wants to be known by her correct name, “De-lata,” but she’s studying a field that’s not truly hers.
Does the Lord look at us and see great potential for us in Him and see us going down avenues that don’t suit who we are? Are we following someone else’s dream and passing by God’s best for us? Each one of us wants to be known for who we are and still sometimes we wander off into directions not at all good for us or we do things that totally change our course from which we can never return.
We made it to Malabo along with all our bags and the weed eaters. Gayle had a great pot of homemade chicken veggie soup and we made ham sandwiches to go along with it. We talked a while. We caught up. Had fun fellowshipping and turned in pretty early. We had church in the morning and my job was just beginning. Breakfast bright and early at 8. It would be a good day!
Father, thank you for safety, flight connections met, and meeting new people. Guide Dilara, guide us in your chosen way so our potential in You will be fulfilled. Give us strength to do the tasks ahead of us. I love you, Jesus.
Suz